~This is me. I have been awakened to the Nam Shakti.~
and look it has Ganesha pouring light over me
Now I am giggling and laughing again. Ganesha is with me and he is so happy that it makes me laugh and be happy with Ganesha in my heart. Is the natural state of being happiness? Today is March 8 2014 and Ganesha and the Hindu Deities told me that I have been awakened to the Nam Shakti.
I suspect I have always had Ganesha and the Hindu deities in my life. Because even as a young girl I always wanted to learn to read Sanskrit and I always knew that I would be going to India when I am in my 30's. I grew up in Sweden and India and Hinduism are never given to us in Sweden, somehow we have to find them on our own. But I did not know it was Hinduism! I never read about Hinduism, still, God Ganesha and the Blue Kings must have been in my life always.
For a few years now I have regularly been going to websites with Oriental clothing and dreaming of wearing those clothes. I especially want white salwar kameez embroidered with gold. What makes a Swedish woman reject blue jeans and a black t-shirt? Just instinct and the way I feel myself. I still have not bought my first salwar kameez but it is getting harder and harder to resist the strong temptation. This urge comes from within and from Ganesha. It is not from something I read or chose, it is from who I am and it is from what Hinduism is.
You are not a Demiurge, but we are. ~ one of the Hindu Demons, March 8 2014, 8:22 PM, this was someone like Desala or Majala, the Genies, he meant that I am not a Demiurge
But back to the story of Nam Shakti! I was very spiritual in my teens. I isolated myself from the "normal world" as much as I could, because I did not feel like becoming one of those normal people who wear blue jeans and smoke cigarettes and drink alcohol. I had a golden halo when I was 15 and my energy was bright light so bright it could be seen with eyes and in the mirror. Then I started to reject who I am and lost much of it for many years, and now life has brought me back toward myself.
I am not the Demiurge. ~ one of the Fallen Angels, March 8 2014, 8:25 PM
Ganesha came into my life in February 2014. The first time I heard about Ganesha was from a Fallen Angel who said that the Creator God looks like an octopus and had created the Vegas (who created at least the original golden Jewish humans), the Angels, and the Blue Kings of Hinduism. Then Arch Angel Michael wanted to show me God and Michael said that God looks like an octopus and I was shown the face of God. Soon after that one morning a Blue King appeared and showed me God and revealed to me that this is Ganesha of Hinduism. Ganesha is in fact an octopus and not an elephant. He has many tentacles on his chin and not just one trunk. He is pink and orange just like Ganesha is drawn, and the smiling eyes are exactly that way as in the paintings.
Then I realized that Ganesha had been looking at me and letting me see him for quite some time. I remembered the face I had been seeing and I had not known who it was. It was Ganesha our Creator God.
Ganesha visits me often and when he does he smiles at me and his happiness is contageous and I smile and laugh and I am so happy with Ganesha.
But something that happened every time when Ganesha would visit me is something I have to tell you about. Every time when he visited I would become aware of my bowels and then my bowels would work faster and I had to go to the bathroom. (Not like a stomach flu, just that food was suddenly passing through me faster.) I could feel that it was the light of Ganesha that rejects the dirty things in my body. Ganesha is pure and clean and his cleanliness has an effect on the human body.
Here he is again and he is smiling at me. It really does look as if he had a wide elephant trunk on his face instead of a nose. There is a wide fatty region where a nose and a mouth would be. And he has many small tentacles from his chin. He is pink and orange and he is so happy he just smiles so wide! Ganesha lives in the Kingdom of Heaven together with the Blue Kings.
I noticed that I started to reject most foods. Ganesha told me to be a vegetarian if I want to be close to him and to eat fruit. I adopted vegetarianism and I try to eat fruit every day. But something has happened with my body, a transformation, which makes this cleaner food natural and not just a choice.
It is not mandated, tell them. ~ Ganesha, March 8 2014, 8:37 PM, he means people don't HAVE TO be vegetarians, it is a choice
It worries me that I am losing interest in food.
It is not a deeply religious thing, but that is also important. ~ Ganesha says to me and bows, he shows me the trashcan that I have to empty
Today I ate a big piece of cucumber because it was all I could eat. Other foods felt heavy and wrong. I used to love chocolate milk every evening since I became a vegetarian with Ganesha and now the chocolate powder which is industrialized feels very wrong, I would say that it has the wrong shape. I made carrot patties today with soy flour and peanut flour and they were great. My body requires different foods today thanks to Ganesha and my body is transforming into something better and stronger and more beautiful.
I ate the cucumber and said to myself "Sat Nam" many times, just like Ganesha had taught me to do the other night. I wondered why I am eating differently and why only fruit seems to be possible now. Then the Hindu deities answered my question, they said, "It is because you have been awakened to the Nam Shakti." (or "It is because you have been awakened to Nam Shakti") and then they showed me my white body that they keep there.
At the bottom of this page I write more about what Nam Shakti means and about the white ivory body that they have there for me.
This is what the body looked like that the Blue Kings and God Ganesha made for me. It was a white body as if made out of soft bright white ivory and adorned with gold jewelry like this.
What is all this talk about the Demiurge? Who is the Demiurge? And what does it mean? ~ me
It means your Ida Pingala and Shushumna are strong. That is what Demiurge means. ~ Fallen Angel
No it does not! ~ the Hindu Genie objects to what the Fallen Angel said about that being the Demiurge
Am I a Demiurge? What does it mean? ~ me
It means, something like a God. And we don't like to resist it anymore. ~ Fallen Angel says and leans toward me and looks at me with his white eyes
Am I a God? Because I have Nam Shakti? And why is the Genie trying to make me think that I am not what I am? ~ me
The Demiurge is not me. ~ says the Fallen Angel but almost like in a question
Tell me what you are talking, or stop talking in riddles. Make sense please. ~ me
The figurines must be broken! ~ the Hindu Genie says with eyes wide open and he thinks about the Hindu deities such as in the picture of Shakti on this page, he wants to break them
Why do you want to break them? Are they more powerful than you? Don't you love the light and colors and the beauty? ~ me
Because not everybody wants to be a King. ~ Ganesha, to be a King means to be beautiful
Please! Tidy up around here! ~ Ganesha says and shows me that I have trash in my trashcan
If you want to be beautiful start with that. As, these are not clean surroundings. Sat Pam to you. ~ Ganesha
What is Sat Pam? I will clean tomorrow Ganesha. I love you. ~ me
Yes, I am happy to say that! ~ Ganesha says and smiles, he means that he was happy to tell me about the trash (the trashcan has mostly just shredded papers)
Yes Ganesha. I will tidy up tomorrow. ~ me
