My soul is Angel Narkael
And the Jews are human Angels
This is about my painful and difficult life of being someone on the inside in my soul, who is not the same as what the body is. How I've struggled to preserve my secret hidden identity, when I was told by people that I was not allowed to be that way. The journey I've had in finding out who I am, still a painful journey of finding out how I could be who I am, in this world. And how I find myself and a home here on Earth when I discover that our Jews are part Angel, and that they speak the same language as the woman in my soul does, who is an Angel.
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My whole life I talked about being from another world until I was told to stop talking about it because I was told it could not be true and that people would think I am insane if I talk like that. Before I was told to be quiet about it, I described another world and had a lot of wisdom for my young age. When I was told to be quiet, it hurt me very badly and as a child I isolated myself more or less for years from people because of it. I didn't want to look any people in the eye, people who would have looked me in the eye and demanded that I be someone I am not, and that I am not who I am. I stopped talking to people, because I was not allowed to say what I want. I did not want to be part of this world or society. I did not go to school for years, I did not play with any of my friends, I did not want to interact with my family. Because I had been told that I do not exist, and I wanted to exist, and the only way that I could exist was to be by myself. I grew up that way, all alone, defending my right to exist, so that I would not have to feel like I am dying.
When I spent my long days all by myself locked up in my room, about the only thing I wanted to do was to daydream about this other people who were like humans, but they had special abilities such as telepathic communication, and they were beautiful with long wide eyes in bright color. I was one of them, I wanted to be, even though my body looked like a human child. On the inside I was an old woman from another world, even if nobody else could see it. The days were long and I longed for the day when I could turn 18 and have the right to decide over my own life, to move away and for me to be the one to tell who I was meant to be.
I used to draw this woman that was me on the inside. But I hid those drawings so that nobody else would see them, or I feared that others would take them away from me, people would take away who I am inside if they knew my biggest secret! My true identity, was my secret identity, and I was not going to let anybody know who I am. I had separate clothes for the real me, and other clothes that I wore when I had to be around people. I would not let anybody see me wearing the clothes that belonged to my real self! I used to draw with black makeup pen long lines from the corner of my eye extending my eyes as far as it could, remembering the long wide eyes of my real self, which the mirror could not show. I would cover my red human lips with white makeup to make it look as if I had no mouth, because the people I was from they had no mouth. I would then look at this made-up glimpse of my real self and cry my makeup all messy, but these were those few glimpses of being me, when I could breathe.
I did not know more words than the words that I had been taught. And no one in my human life had ever taught me anything about the possibility of being a soul who does not fit with the body. Or of the right to say who I am, rather than being the product of the outside world that shapes you. I was already someone, and this world and all the people in this world were trying to kill the one I am inside, to tell me that I do not exist and to make me think that I am someone I am not! It already hurt a lot to have a body that does not look like me, to have been given a name that is not mine, but my very soul to be denied in this world, my very essence.
In my teens I started to think that I was an alien incarnation, a woman from outer space, pretty much like from a science-fiction story of spaceships and other planets. I knew I was from another world. Some people on Earth say that they are Starseeds, and most of them say that they have a feeling that they are from the Pleiadians or from Sirius or from the other popular places where Starseeds say they are from. In the 1990's we had the internet installed in our home and I connected with other Starseeds around the world and I finally had some people who were living with the same feelings of being from another world, as I was. It would have been easy for me to hop on the same wagon and say that "yeah, I too am from the Pleiadies", or that "I am from Sirius", because then I would have found a label, a name, an origin, and other people who were like me and a family. But I never felt that I was from any of those, I was from somewhere else.
One young man told me that he was a channeler and that he could find out where I am from. I was 15 years at the time. He told me that his answer was that I am from the planet Venus in a different version of the world which they call the astral plane. He told me that my name in this world had been Alenara, and that I had a sister there whose name was Ainkara. None of this resonated with me as truth, but it was all I had, so I clung to these labels best I could, but I knew that in me was still the feeling of being from somewhere else, from a place which none in the Starseed community knew. I would continue waiting, continue to feeling that I have a home to find, and these they are carried with a burden in heart.
I must have been in my 20's when one day while sitting on the bus it came to me as if it had literally fallen down from the sky, "Narkael". And so my name was given to me. Just hearing this name I instantly knew that this was my name, and I would cling on to it like a drowning person holding on to a floating piece of driftwood in a deep vast sea. It was what kept me alive, it kept me afloat. To have my name back, I felt that I could breathe again, at least a little bit more. I had nothing else in this world, not my body, not my identity, not people who are like me, and nobody who knew of my struggles and pain and no one who would have allowed me to be who I am, had they only known that I am someone else on the inside, than I am to the outside. A world that tries to drown me, at least I had my name. I kept this name secret for a long time. There is actually a different version of this name which is my higher name, but I am not telling that one to anyone.
Little by little, I started to know the names of people from my original home. My name had been Narkael, and I had all my life known that I had been chosen in my home world to come to Earth in the form of an incarnation of spirit into a human body, to live through a human being, because that way we can be here in the human world. My name had been Narkael, and I knew that one who was very close to me in my home his name was Jarkael. He still visited me often here on Earth, and wanted to be with me. A woman from home named Sahjael who was my friend.
I knew many things about my home world. I knew that our bodies are made out of light, and not matter. I knew that we use our minds to shape light into things, and that we call it light science and light technology. We do not eat any foods, we only absorb light through the back of our heads. We have no mouths. Our heads are elongated forward like the head of a horse. We have no ears. Our eyes are long and wide and wrap almost around the entire head, almost meeting with the edges at the back of the head, above where the light nutrition is absorbed. The eyes have no eyelids, and we are constantly seeing and never do blink. There are no feet, instead we have two stilt legs with blunt feet like the hooves of a horse. We have light around us on our head like white hair. It is a very loving people, highly conscious, and they do all with the light.
The oldest and most conscious members of our society are the ones who make the decisions that affect the group. We typically have eight Elders, they are highly revered, because we revere consciousness which we know that we will have one day. Two of the Elders I have always known from home, were Elder Ehreiah and Elder Kimael. They used to visit me and talk to me while I am here on Earth.
I always held on tight to the notion that I was a Starseed, an extraterrestrial incarnation from another planet, and again this is a very science-fiction space type of thing, with spaceships and planets. I can't say when exactly I realized that me, and my people, are Angels not Aliens, but it came to me gradually, and today I am entirely convinced.
Yesterday on February 21, 2016, I had what was probably the most meaningful day in my 33-year life on Earth, and for the first time ever since I was born, I felt that I was able to exist, instead of suffering inside like I always have done. And I felt that I have a home, here on Earth and that life can be possible and beautiful and happy for me too. Yesterday I met a random person whom I knew nothing about prior to us meeting, and we started talking. We can call him David named from the Star of David. David is Jewish, and he knew exactly who my otherwordly people are, he completely accepted who I say I am in my soul, and he even knew what my name Narkael means. Narkael is in the Jewish Hebrew language and it means "looks like God".
Since David said that he was Jewish, I was interested in carefully telling him about the book that I wrote together with Fallen Angels, I am talking about the second book with Fallen Angels which I think I will title "The Fallen Angels Interviewed - Jews and Jehovas". In this book the Fallen Angels choose to talk extensively about the Jews. The Fallen Angels say that there was a time when God, the creator God, created the Angels of God and the original golden Jews at the same time in the same process. From one piece of the creation out of the light, were made the Angels, and from the other half of the creation made out of matter, were the original golden Jews.
Some of God's Angels fell in love with the beautiful original Jews and harassed them, persecuted them, and they say they even consumed them. These Angels who had chosen evil, they were severely punished. Their names had been names that end in -el such as Hazukiel, and the -el ending was taken out of their names and an Angel like Hazukiel was demoted to the name Hazumat. David listened to the story, and he told me that El means God. "God" was taken out of the name of the Fallen Angels who fell for their crimes.
I told David how the Fallen Angels say that they fathered children with some of the humans, and of how the Fallen Angels still today want revenge and to destroy the Jews on Earth. Today's Jews are not exactly like they originally were created, but out of all of the humans on Earth, the Jews are the ones who are closest to God's original and beautiful design. Not if you read the Jewish scripture and choose the Jewish religion, but that some of the Jewish genetic populations contain the original design which was Angelic in nature. And then there are other human populations, which the Fallen Angels themselves say are the Arabs, Egyptians, and Turks, whose ancestors were fathered by the Fallen Angels and contain corruption in their design. The Fallen Angels want to destroy the Jews for several reasons, mainly out of these three reasons:
1. The Jews are far more beautiful than the Fallen Angels are, and the Jews are more loved by God. So this reason is jealousy.
I had been curious of how a Jewish person would react to hearing these stories that the Fallen Angels have told me about the Jews. I wanted to know, if any of it might offend the Jewish people or their religion or history, but David said no, that there was no offense. David was deeply moved and even moved to tears a few times when I told him about how special and beautiful the Jews were, and of the reasons why they are always being persecuted by other humans on Earth.
David translated to me all of the names of Angels and the names of people of Narkael for me. He even translated the other words that Angels have sung to me. All of these names and words that were given to me from angelic beings, had real meaning in the Hebrew language. David was able to tell me without any effort at all what Narkael, Chamuel, Ehreiah, Kimael, and the many other names meant. And I realized how special the connection is between the creator god whose name starts with Y and whose name we do not say because then he wants to visit us and his presence can burn with his golden light which is too strong for us to handle, this connection between this creator god and the Jews and the Angels.
The Jews are very special on Earth. All of humanity must take very good care of them, and to let them peacefully build civilization. Jewish people have Angel genes, in their very design the Jews are closer than any of us others to the original design that was made by God. The other human populations have been corrupted genetically by the Fallen Angels and by other reasons as well. The Jewish are our most beautiful people, we need to cherish them, they are part Angels. The Jews are also known to be the most peaceful and intelligent people on Earth who make the most contributions to science and to the advancement of civilization than anyone else. Humanity must wake up and realize that this hatred against Jews is coming from dark entities the Fallen Angels. Those of us who are not Jews, must realize the powerful and dark spell that the Fallen Angels have, and that we can really cherish the Jews, because they are the finest humans on this Earth, they are closest to what God intended, and they are part Angel in design. We must cherish the Jews, we must protect them, and we must let them lead and guide us, for they can build civilizations far more beautiful than anyone else could. I cannot emphasize enough, how very important and beautiful and precious these people are, based on what I have been shown and told by real celestial beings.
I must say that David was a most spectacular specimen of Jews. Not that I want to generalize, but he was the most remarkable man I have ever met. David is one of the most educated and experienced human beings on this planet. He has several degrees in an incredibly wide range of areas of specialization, ranging from engineering, politics, business, and several others. He has conducted extensive research on areas and made important contributions to every field in which he has worked. When others have seen problems, he has come up with instant and simple solutions.
David talks constantly and non-stop. It is interesting following his stream of thoughts. He presents his knowledge and talks about his work and reveals tremendous intelligence and wisdom, and it is not a far leap of faith for one of us common humans to think that this man is part Angel, closer to god than we others are. He is the most intelligent man I have ever met. His memory and ability to cite information is spectacular. He is definitely in the very highest top level of spectacular human beings on this planet, and I am not surprised if all of those spectacular human beings in that very highest category would also be Jews.
Not to generalize, but I have observed that often when I see a Jewish person on television, how they talk a lot and fast and they have a constant stream of intelligent ideas. I used to love watching this particular tv series which ran for many seasons and it takes a bunch of Americans who compete together to solve puzzles and complete a variety of challenging tasks. Every single time when there was a Jewish person, and at the risk of being rude to generalize, they are remarkably fascinating to watch and to listen to, a steady stream of talking and ideas and the way that they talk and formulate ideas, watching people like David or like the any Jews I have seen on tv shows as they are next to other humans it is like seeing a different race or species altogether, one that is far superior. When I told David that I have learned from celestial beings that the Jews are a superior human race, he always rejected it and humbled himself and said that he does not agree that anyone should be considered superior. And then I told him that this is also a part of the special talents that the Jewish have from their Angel origin, that they do not want to beat down other people, even if those other people were inferior, which we are, we others who are not Jewish we are inferior.
But it is reason to celebrate. I know that I could never have the supreme intellect of a Jewish person such as David, I can only sit back and listen to him talk and admire him tremendously. I absolutely love Jewish people and I love to listen to when they talk. No one should have reason to feel offended if they are not Jewish, instead it is time that humanity wakes up from the evil dark spell that the Fallen Angels have put it under in their attempt to destroy the very finest and most beautiful Angelic people we have got on Earth. Anti-semitism makes no sense. The Jews are Angelic, they have potentials that the rest of us do not have. We should all let the Jews lead this world, and watch the amazing civilization that emerges when they are let to build it.
David was astounded that a Swedish woman would say these things about the Jews, or that me a Swedish woman would have written the books that I wrote together with Angels which talks about the Jews and the Angels and the connection.
But apart from the fact that I tremendously admire and adore the Jews, I spent a whole evening together with David. We went for a walk in the city and had lunch together. We talked about Judaism, about the history of Jews and the persecution against Jews, about Israel. He showed me a book written in Hebrew which he had with him, and I loved looking through the text and I wondered if the Angels wrote these characters for the Jews in the old times, since I now knew that the Jews are speaking the exact very same language that the Angels sing. Isn't that beautiful, how connected the Jews are to the Angels, that they are even speaking the very exact same language Hebrew?
But let's remember that I have always been a woman in my soul whose name is Narkael and who was a being made out of light in another world. Together with David I was finally able to feel alive for the first time. David saw how my eyes changed color from blue to green. I was born with blue eyes but Narkael has green eyes with gold. At times when I am able to be myself, to be Narkael and not have to hide it, my eyes change from blue and into green with gold. David noticed my eyes, and he could not stop talking about my eyes.
David showed me some songs in Hebrew and I listened and it was lovely because these were sung by people who are part Angel and in the language of the Angels. Not only are the Jews beautiful Angels, but I feel so close to them because in my soul I am one of the Angels, and my name Narkael means something in their language, it means "looks like god".
I was able to see how empty and gray the world around me was, and how golden and alive life is with David, in Judaism, and probably also would be in Israel. All my life I have lived in a world where Narkael doesn't exist, where no one can see her, where I am told that I have to be someone else that I am not. And now I have discovered that there is an entire people on Earth, the Jewish people, who are closer to these same Angels than they even realize themselves, and that they are singing songs in the same Hebrew language that the Angels sing their songs in, and in this language my name exists, it means something, and I can exist. I cannot tell you what that means to me, after a lifetime of isolation and feeling completely not living in this world.
But David was only here for one day. Even while we were still together, I had to realize that this would all soon end, this golden cocoon that David is by being part Angel and by him living in a world where my super secret Narkael the very life and soul in me can also exist. I had to wonder what it would feel like once David would no longer be near me, when I have to return to a world which does not speak Hebrew, where my name Narkael does not mean anything to anyone else again, and where people are not part Angels part the same people as Narkael. Slowly today I am realizing that I miss David. He was the glimpse of life that I never had been able to have before.
I am now again in a life where Narkael does not mean anything to anyone. Where I hide my golden green eyes from people, and my eyes stay blue, and sad. No Hebrew songs singing in the language of Angels.
Now I remember how I realized that Narkael and her people were Angels. When I started working with Angels, who I knew were Angels, such as Gabriel and Michael, I was making a list of the names of Angels. And I noticed that these have the same ring to them as the names of Narkael and her people. Names of beings who are known to be Angels, such as Rafael, Uriel, Gabriel, Michael, Haloel, Chamuel, and the names of Narkael and her people, Narkael, Jarkael, Sahjael, Kimael. And that Narkael and her people are beings made of light. My study of the Angels of God and my study of the woman in my soul and her people merged and I realized that it was the same.
Pain and sadness can turn to love and life.
2. The Fallen Angels chose to be evil, but still they blame the Jews because the Fallen Angels were made to fall for their crimes against the Jews. It does not make sense to blame the Jews who were the original victims of those crimes, but the Fallen Angels hold that resentment.
3. The Fallen Angels say that the Jews were the "only" humans who never gave their women to the Fallen Angels. All other human populations have given their women to the Fallen Angels and the Fallen Angels have fathered children who are part human and part Fallen Angel. The Fallen resent the Jews for their persistent rejection.
4. Well I find a fourth reason as well. The Fallen Angels are able to easily manipulate the minds and actions of their offspring among the humans and to make those humans work for them. The Fallen Angels want to be kings and gods on Earth, and they manipulate their human offspring to also go after the Jews. The Fallen Angels want this to be their own dark kingdom of torment and murder, and they do not consider the Jews as their children or as their people, so they create armies of their own people of the descendants of the Azaketh (read about Azaketh in the book) to go after the Jews.