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India, and Angels from Telmaar
March 5, 2014 ~ Today was another hard day. I felt so very upset that I don't have my future husband with me yet, and that I am not living the life I was meant to live. I tell the Angels that it is like living in a dark well. Again, I got angry at the Angels, at Jesus, and at God because I don't have the life I wanted, because they tell me I am not ready, and to wait. I had another cry and tantrum and I screamed at God and blamed him for putting me into a meaningless life and I said I almost wish I didn't have this life. I fell asleep for a nap. When I woke up everything was changed.
As soon as I woke up I said to myself, "I am going to India to work with orphan children". And I felt great. I felt alive and happy, and I suspect that it might have been Jesus (and God) working with me while I was asleep. They had given my life purpose and now I'm happier than ever. Jesus doesn't want me to feel worthless and left out, when there is so much work to be done! Working with children through Christ is not just a thought or a plan, it is a mission, and working beside Jesus brings me so much happiness and purpose! Saved by Jesus again!
Naptapurti. ~ one of the Hindu deities, March 5, 2014, 6:00 PM
The Hindu religious deities have said many words to me that sound like Hindi, here is another one.
Yesterday evening I felt terrible, it was because I had listened to The Beatles songs backwards to investigate why Satan had said that those songs contain Satanic messages when played backwards. I think I had opened up too much to Satan and the Fallen, it was really a horrendous suffering all over. Luckily that went away with time, and with the help of Allah and Jesus. I ask Allah for protection against the Demons and it is enough for me to think of the Quran. I want to humbly start reading the Quran soon, I can no longer resist. I will have to think of ways to be pure.
All my life I knew I was Narkael. It started with having her in my room outside of me. I used to draw her, like a woman but with wide eyes and no feet. She hasn't just been like a guardian Angel for me. She has been so close to me that she lives through me, and I feel that I am her. I used to think that she was an extraterrestrial and that I was a Star Person, but the more I learn about the Angels I think that she is of an Angelic kind. I am learning to understand myself as Narkael and through a human person. To live life here, in the forgotten, and be reborn again. That is what we do, that is why we are here, and to help humanity.
Because of Narkael I can do many things and I know things that humans don't. I have tried my best not to be her, to conform, to be "like everybody else", only that is like denying my soul. That is why I am now at a crossroads. My old life has shattered, the fake life I used to live, and where do I go from here? I am impatient to find my future husband that the Angels have prepared for me, I want to be in his arms and safe to be me, but the Angels tell me to wait. I am afraid to do this alone, but looks like I have to. The difficulty I am writing about, is, "how can you be an Angel in this world?" Yet with the name and national identity number and address and records and family and ties of a human holding you back. Why can't my passport say, "Nationality: Telmaar", "Sex: Light Being", "Name: Narkael". Why does it say someone else's name? Why is it not my own face in the mirror? Where is my husband who will know who I am and look into my eyes and let me be who I am? The Angels tell me to wait for him.
My future husband is a very religious man. He talks to God every day and he has prayed for me. The Angels will not send me to him until I am ready. It is a very delicate plan, very precious to God. It just hurts me knowing that he is there and that I am being asked to wait. At least Jesus has given me a diversion, I can go to India and work with Jesus and the children. I also hope to attend a Ganesha festival and to study with the Hindi. I want to learn Sanskrit and Hindi and read the old texts that were given to the people of India by our Brother Kingdom the Blue Kings and Ganesha!
India has a population of 1270 million and some 30% of them are living in poverty. Elsewhere in the world, people are wondering what movie to see. Wanting to work with God's children might be difficult if it were a choice. It would feel like a task. But when you do it with Jesus in your heart, well all I can say is that it is Jesus doing it through me, it is his love, and he knows what to do.
Jesus teaches me something interesting. He says that we cannot help people who are not asking for his help. When I think about going to Africa to help the poor, he tells me no, because they are not asking for the help. Instead I am being guided to work in a Catholic orphanage in South America, where people in need know about Jesus and can ask for him. THAT IS WHY it is important to spread the message of Jesus. Jesus told me that to help the homeless in a country, you FIRST have to give them a Bible or tell them about Jesus. Then they can decide if they want the help.
Remember when we were sent away? And what happened to you? ~ Lord Sananda Jesus, March 5, 2014, 6:19 PM
Jesus referred to the other night when I had told them all to leave and when Satan had come to me and had shown me The Beatles songs and nearly had me, until I called for Jesus and God to come back, which they did, and saved me. We are so vulnerable as humans in this world. There are powerful deities both good and bad and they are fighting over us. We humans cannot stand alone, simply because there are evil powerful beings here who want to destroy us for their own pleasure. And fortunately there are also loving beings who want to protect us, because they care. It's just the way this is. Most people are unaware of this.
All my life I knew about Narkael and I also knew about her friend Jarkael who works with a homeless orphan boy in South America. I have been shown that boy so many times throughout my life. He has grown up all alone, but with other homeless children, they live on a garbage dump. He sleeps on the ground and he is afraid that someone will steal his shoes while he sleeps. His best friend is a brown homeless dog that follows him. He hugs that dog, he has no one else to hug. There is a gated villa where he sometimes goes, the woman there is kind to him but has not taken him in. Jarkael comforts him and soothes him, and thanks to Jarkael the boy did not start sniffing glue and petrol like many of the other kids do. I think I am guided to go to South America to find that boy, and then I would also find Jarkael.
I was once also shown a girl in India who was saved by the Angels from being raped by a group of men. The Angels tell her where to go and want her to be safe. She never even knew that she could have been in danger, the Angels saw it before it was even an issue. One night when I was walking home alone I had one Angel on either side of me and they held me tight and stopped me from being able to walk forward. I was angry at them and wanted them to let me go but I couldn't get loose no matter how I tried. So I said "fine" and chose the other path. I would have walked past a man who turned out to be a rapist, because he was running toward me from the other direction. Had I not been stopped from walking past him I would have been doomed. And once as a little girl I was out on the ocean all by myself in an innertube and the current was drifting me away. Angels spoke to me to go back to land, and I obeyed. When I remember the moment as an adult it is clear that I would have drifted out to sea and drowned. They have saved me many times. They also saved me when I was a newborn.
We humans are fragile creatures, without the guidance and protection of our Angels life on Earth would be short and painful. We were created by God and he wants us here. God has a plan for us. They want us to live our lives, they want us to be happy and safe and protected. Last night Allah came to me and he wanted to tell me that he had created the humans. He showed me something which I struggle to explain, in which my body was dissolved into pixels and energy, as if created out of a mesh which results in the body. It made sense when he showed it to me. Our bodies are not what we think.
I asked God why he would create humans who are handicapped or ill. He said that they too were created and had a purpose. I struggled to understand why that would be the case. I don't understand these things, only God knows.
What do I know of Narkael and her people which include light beings Jarkael, Kimael, Ehreiah and others? They are from Telmaar. They do not have wings. They have soft hooved feet and are light beings. They are very similar to Angels. Before I started to suspect that they are Angels, I had already known that they call themselves the "gatekeepers". They have built a gate which separates two worlds, this world, and the heavenly world on the other side of that gate. Light beings who are more conscious and of more light had been given to live on the other side of that gate, shielded from having to feel the lower world on this side. And the people of Telmaar are the gatekeepers, they keep things from reaching to the other side of that gate, and are thus the most conscious beings in this side of the universe, on this side of the gate. I was told that Narkael is here to earn her wings, probably by protecting me.
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