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Not of this Earth
February 11, 2014 ~ A few days ago a relative passed away. The night before that day I had a long and vivid dream in which he was dead and looked as if he was sleeping and the family were at his home to clear things out. I told my mother about that dream and she tried to call him and there was no answer. That same day we found out that he had passed away either that night or a few nights before. Usually I keep a low profile from people. I don't spend too much time with family or friends, even if I have these people in my life. It was always like that. In my childhood I was more frank about my feelings and I isolated myself from people best I could. In my teens and beyond I have understood the obligation to spend time with people. But even at that, I keep it at a minimum. I have always been more of an observer with people, not a participant. I was made to be a nun. It doesn't mean there is something wrong with me. It just means that I was not made of this Earth. I was made to be close to God. That is why I know what people are thinking, I know and understand their emotions. I could sit down with any person and talk to them in depth about how they are feeling and how to solve their emotional troubles, but it is considered "embarrassing" or "abnormal" to sit down with someone and reveal to them that wow, you happen to know exactly how they are feeling - and all the solutions too. I don't like to go out with friends because all they want to do is drink alcohol. I feel as if I were a thousand years older and wiser. I really don't see the enthusiasm in drinking a beverage that makes you act stupid like a monkey, and that also takes away all of God's grace and beauty out of you. And I know it is harmful to the body to drink alcohol. I am surrounded by so much foolishness, and I really don't want to participate. And what people talk about does not interest me. I don't care about the latest telephones, or something you can buy for money, or some jeans you bought for a lot of money that were on the tv advertisement. I just want to live in Spirit, be close to myself and be close to God. And I really don't want to go out to eat. Food is a religious act for me. I like to say a little prayer before I eat, just because it makes that food so much better. And I like to eat vegetarian. I think about the welfare of the animals when I eat it. I think about where the food came from. Ordinary people do not think. I am so sensitive I even see the human being who picked the fruits off the tree. I see and feel the whole lifecycle of the cow or pig (I don't eat pigs anymore) who lived and died for the meat and I see and feel all what they felt when they were made to be dead. What I love to eat the most are chickpeas. You can't beat chickpeas, because when you eat them you are eating the things they drink from the soil, you are drinking water and sunshine and you ingest a fresh field of chickpea flowers. In fact I love to eat anything with flowers. I love fruit and I also love almonds. Chickpeas are a favorite. And chamomile tea is a flower. And often at times, I do not want to eat at all. I just want to be in spirit, and fast. And most people cannot understand that, or what it means. I can see ghosts and they talk to me sometimes. When I walk past a place I can see all of its history. I sometimes enjoy walking around in old cities and looking at the history as it happened. I can see all the great battles and historical figures, but also what they wore and how they felt and what their emotions were and what they ate for breakfast. My eyes have been opened by God, I was made to be that way. When a person dies either because of violence done to them or that they had done violence onto others, then they tend to linger around as ghosts, with having unresolved negative emotions. I talk to them and help them move on and into the light. It is as easy as listening to what God would have me say to them, and it works very similar to counseling therapy. I have helped many souls pass over into the light. I know what animals are thinking and feeling, and yes they have souls but sometimes different than ours. When I walk out and about among people I am filled with information that others cannot see. There is the voice of God and Angels all around, but the bustle of so many humans who suffer, who have illnesses, and I can see them all. And time is not linear, I can see and feel the past, as if happening all at once. In fact, I do not even feel as if I belong in this time. I can walk in all times. Humans see time because their perception works slowly, but time it does not exist. Everything is "one". I was never like anyone else, and I hate having to try. Because today I asked a family member if we should all get together and enjoy a movie and food together. (Not that I enjoy movies, or food.) I then realized he was probably mourning the loss of our family member, so I wrote back and apologised. To me it feels odd that someone would be mourning the loss of a family member. If you can do all that you can do while that person is alive, to love them, then there is no reason to wish for anything more or any more time with that person. All we can do here is to love one another, and if you feel that something was left "incomplete" when they have passed, then it can only be love that is missing. Because it can take a second or it can take a thousand years to learn to love someone, but we will never have enough time with a person that we love if we cannot learn to love them without time. And I have already spoken to this family member who had passed away. And I know he is going to his mother soon and moving on to Heaven into the Light. Humans do not know how to live, so they also do not know how to let someone die. I was not made for this world. I cannot share in the toils and troubles of ordinary humans. In the Light there is no pain, and there is also no fear. Humans suffer, only because they are disconnected from the Light. I wish to distance myself properly, and stop pretending to be a part of this world. I was not made to walk among humans or try to live like they. And I have so many gifts, that others might deem as miracles. I can heal, I can read your pains and solve them with you. I talk with the Angels and with God, also with other entities such as the dark ones Djinn and Satan and with extraterrestrial peoples such as the Elohim and Arcturians who talk to me. I can see the insides of human bodies and find and also mend illnesses with the Light. These are things all normal to me. I am not made of this Earth. I wish to be a Nun. No one would bother a Nun or ask them to have alcohol or watch a scary movie with them. I don't want to watch television with news about murders or requests for people to buy things that they do not even need, or things that they need and that should be free. Today Allah told me that all humans should be given food for free, and I agreed. If everyone devoted one year of their life for the making of food or other things that we all need, then we would all have enough. And if those people have to be paid or reimbursed for their work dealing with food, then that money could come from the other sectors. But food should be for free, and it should be available for everyone. In the future if I have a garden that has fruit trees then everyone will be welcome to come and eat. Please, eat, the fruits of this Earth, for the earth was not made by you, it was given to you. Should I join a convent? I would like to either join a Catholic convent and become a Nun and devote my time to prayer and to God's work. Or I might want to join Islam and become a devout wife and mother and daughter of Allah, because I would serve Allah if I had many children for him and supported my muslim husband in his work for God. But please, I cannot be asked to be part of this world, not like this. I cannot be asked to smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol, be vain and shallow, judge others based on what they look like or what they wear, to buy things that I do not need just because those were on television and everybody agrees they are therefore important, to suffer and to forget God. Everyday modern people think that someone who chooses to become a nun or a muslim woman might somehow be asking to give away many gifts and delights of this earth, but you don't understand. Instead of enjoying food, I can enjoy another essence given by God that tastes better and nourishes better. God gives me so much that money can't buy. A true happiness. I have lived in the ordinary world. I have done things like shopping and alcohol and casual sex and all of it. Being in Spirit is much more fun and more of a high than being drunk on alcohol is. Being with Allah gives me a feeling as if I have everything I need and it feels better than coming home with ten shopping bags of clothes and makeup and new shoes. Allah feels like millions of gifts, and they are all ethereal and happiness. I grew up in ordinary society to be an ordinary woman, and I was taught to think that wanting to be a nun (or a muslim!) is boring and lame and embarrassing. But there are trees, and there are people. There are fish in the seas, and birds in the sky. Not all things that were made, were made out to be a human. And sometimes, just sometimes, something comes along that is not a human but that takes on the form of a human. So that humans can know that they are not alone. But that is the waves crashing in on the shore, the air mixing in with the ocean, the mixing of elements and the combination of worlds. How can a tree learn that it was not made to be a flower? But that it was made to stand tall and strong. ~ An Angel speaks |